First Day at the Gym

A couple weeks ago I signed up for a $10 gym trial online for the local gym.  I get nervous going into a gym because honestly I feel too fat to be at the gym, like all eyes are on me.  I know logically that everyone is more concerned with themselves than anything, but I still feel like I stick out as this humongous obese girl that has no right to walk through the door.  So, it took me a couple weeks to get up the courage to use this trial membership.

Yesterday evening it was cold and raining so I figured if I was ever going to make myself walk through those doors this was it.  After talking myself into it I got dressed and headed to the gym.  Since I signed up online I went to the lady at the front when I got there to see if I needed to do anything(turns out I needed to sign a couple papers) and there was a muscly guy standing next to her when I was finding out what was needed.  He looked me over from head to toe, literally moving his head up and down, looks straight at me and says, "Well it looks like you haven't done a thing" and sneered.

At first I didn't know if I heard him right.  It took several more minutes for it to sink in because who says something like that?  I am a good person, so I was in disbelief someone could be so mean.  Once it sunk in I was pissed, but a little late to retort at that point.  How can someone be so cruel to another human being with their words?  It took all my courage to walk through those doors and that in itself is an accomplishment.  He didn't know that I've been working my butt off for nearly 6 months to loose 70 pounds so far.  Maybe if people worked a little harder to be kind to one another and not judge people by their outward appearance this world would be a little better.  I want to learn how to start strength training and that is the main reason I joined the gym, second being the snow that will soon appear.  If that guy had approached me with kindness instead then he likely could of helped me learn since he obviously knows about strength training.  Instead he approached me with cruel judgement and made my journey to fitness just a little more challenging.

I continued on into the gym to do 10 minutes on the elliptical then I did 50 minutes on the treadmill.  Another time in my life I would of left the building crying, however I didn't let what was said deter me from my goals.  I am determined to reach my target.  I am determined to live a healthier lifestyle and be the best version of myself I can be.  I just wish that the world understood it isn't easy. I wish those that have never struggled with weight understood that it is a daily struggle for others.  Be grateful for your body, but don't put others down because they aren't like you.